Nicole Hartley Bradford

is creating a grounded and illuminated path through the chaos, come what may

39

patrons

$362

per month

About


As I enter my 50th year, mental health is inseperable from planetary health; both are my "first concern".

“Small-t” developmental trauma and childhood adversity put me on a course that included patterns of relational breakdown, early single parenthood and poverty. The loss of my father at 23 added to my load, and by my forties the accumulative effects meant losing my marriage of eleven years and becoming homeless.

Thankfully, my well-established coping mechanisms kept me from sliding into substance addiction, though they did not save me from a slow fall into mental illness.

Two years ago, despite these coping mechanisms, the exhaustion of fighting poverty with a disregulated nervous system caught up with me, and I went to social services to ask for temporary financial support. My inability to navigate forms, (such as income tax returns) finally was the straw that broke the camel’s back and I melted down in full view of a social worker.

I was sent for the psych assessment which I’d asked my family doctor for, in vain, years earlier.

At last, with a diagnosis on file, I gained access to previously missing resources, and I began therapy last year.

So mental health, for me, the precursor for planetary health, currently means attending weekly group and monthly individual therapy, and integrating in between. It also looks like making calls, as needed, to an extremely well versed space holder I am privileged to know, Philip Be'er. 

Philip is someone who can, by way of having seen effectively to his own past trauma, be fully present while I am in the grip of emotions and mental confusion, and who communicates with me in such a way that things don’t get worse. In fact these calls provide me acknowledgement and appreciation of my past adversity as inevitable precursors to my life’s ongoing challenges, and this is deeply healing. Mental health also means, for me, that I allow myself to grieve the losses of my past, hard, as needed. I believe that grief is a key to human planetary survival as well.

On a day to day basis, mental health in the context of my life means sleeping 8 hours a day, eating nutrient rich food, and living in a home which I share with familiars, Awakening House Temporary Permaculture Ashram, practicing authentic relating, and learning together to see to the order of things. A big part of this is supported by the regular implementation of a feedback process I made up, which we all use, and I teach: CKRAAPing BIG.

Through this long journey, one of my coping mechanisms has been to imagine a world in which it would have been impossible for many of the traumas of my past to occur; a world of deeply interconnected humans, leading deeply interconnected lives with each other and with other-than-humans, all over the Earth.

This imagining led me to establish Awakening the Village, a hub for people who wish to imagine and make possible this co-created world. Under the umbrella of Awakening the Village I share writing about my journey, as well as ideas, tools, and news about a wide array of village-relevant themes; from transformative justice justice to food security; regenerative energy to re-wilding the human body.

Here on my Patreon platform is where I share my best work online, and it is the slowly growing basis for my long term financial security, essential to my personal mental health....and in a way that I believe doesn't unduly compromise the health and well being of other human and other-than-human life on this Earth.

Goals
$300 - reached! per month
When I reach $300/month, I will post a video I created with my housemate, Fllow. My first Patron video release!
1 of 1
By becoming a patron, you'll instantly unlock access to 21 exclusive posts
3
Images
1
Link
18
Writings
1
Video
By becoming a patron, you'll instantly unlock access to 21 exclusive posts
3
Images
1
Link
18
Writings
1
Video

Recent posts by Nicole Hartley Bradford

How it works

Get started in 2 minutes

Choose a membership
Sign up
Add a payment method
Get benefits