Anita Walker is creating poetry, books, articles, support groups & websites
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Hi y’all,

I am Anita Walker, a 40 year old online entrepreneur who started my own web design and development business end of 2000, just 6 months fresh out of college. I did very well professionally in the initial years but it started going downhill as a bad marriage gone worse culminated in an eventual divorce (the lesser said about it the better). The trauma of the whole ordeal over years of taking abuse resulted in what I perceive as some concentration roadblocks in my mind where I started to neglect work little by little to a lot because I couldn't focus on one thing for more than an hour or two. I also lost track of time in addition to the lack of interest in my work already pulling me apart. It was pretty devastating to perpetually feel that my career was over and that my livelihood was suddenly yanked out from under me. Added to this turmoil I had moved with my two daughters to be near my parents, so just settling down and us getting used to living by ourselves took time. Being an extreme optimist I think for years I tried to fake being fine, but the experience of becoming more and more misunderstood by everyone around lead to increasing my misery via depression and the unfathomable effects of PTSD. There were only a couple of friends to whom I opened up completely about the real nightmare I was living in but just being able to express and talk it all out helped immensely. I didn't get any professional help because I felt I didn't need it and it was a temporary phase. I thought I knew my own capabilities and that made me confident I would be able to pull myself through by sheer determination and will power. My staunch belief was that God was in control and wouldn't let me suffer unless it was part of His perfect will. No where did my faith falter but I initially failed to see that I was not the same person anymore and I needed a lot of time and healing and help to get back on my feet. Thankfully over the course of the past three years my progress has been great - healing slowly but surely. I was rapidly becoming physically fit and had already been doing a lot of inner work that made me finally able to love myself and my life as it was. However the progress stalled short of my professional work… and didn’t change much till Oct-Nov of last year (My divorce had gone through a couple of months before it which was a humongous psychological release I feel). One of the most crucial turning point was when I started writing and writing and writing without thinking of it as a waste of time. I used to belittle myself constantly when I felt the crazy need to write my random thoughts, not realizing that it was what would eventually bring release to my distressed mind. I have written extensively about this phase in the introduction and commentary to my collection of 41 poems titled "Framing 40" which I released in April 2018. It’s like a mini book in itself  so if you want to know more about me just go ahead and read it starting from the introduction on the album page and through the commentary on the 41 poems (link below):
https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10213610423526506.1073741833.1580949777&type=1&l=4f4a5cf0b1

I recognize myself as an extremely strong individual and this awareness used to make me often wonder if it was this tough for me to pick myself up on all fronts then how much more for those who weren’t as self aware, intuitive or flexible. I honestly feel like I have lived many lifetimes to reach where I am and I feel pushed to help people who very often silently suffer. I want to be someone who is able to openly share my time to help and support people out of their own unique nightmares. I feel the first step is to do it via my writing since this doorway is wide open of late. Though I started publishing my creative writing only in Feb 2018, I feel I have it in me to quickly hit my goals if I can give dedicated time to them. At this beginning stages of my journey I actually really really really need financial support and I am not shy to ask for it anymore. Though I would love nothing but to keep working on my vision and these unabating ideas in my head (my goals describe a partial list) I just am not in a financial position to do it right now. I randomly do create designs for my poems and quotes when I find some time on the weekends but I would like to set apart dedicated time to do this and build the groups and websites I envision. I look forward to the kindness of known and unknown individuals who would like to help me realize these goals.

Thanks & hugs
- Anita
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The hardworking army of supporters that build me up. Every little contribution counts. Access to Patron-only feed.
Bees
$35 or more per month 0 patrons
Encouragers that love my work and want to see me give more and more time to my creative pursuits. Will have first access to most of my work and free membership to my websites where applicable.
Butterflies
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Butterflies are those who want to soar with me. Closer bonds that are mutually encouraging and uplifting. Will be made part of my inner groups to help give my work more direction.
Eagles
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Eagles are those pushing, helping and challenging me till I finally start publishing books and relevant websites. Apart from the personal relationship forged, they will be thanked for their indisputably vital support on my websites and books.
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Additional to what time I find right now, I will devote one entire working day per week to creative writing and designing to publish what's ready, so I start releasing many more poems/quotes and articles per week instead of the  random few hours I get a week. Work on the larger websites will also commence when this goal is reached.

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Hi y’all,

I am Anita Walker, a 40 year old online entrepreneur who started my own web design and development business end of 2000, just 6 months fresh out of college. I did very well professionally in the initial years but it started going downhill as a bad marriage gone worse culminated in an eventual divorce (the lesser said about it the better). The trauma of the whole ordeal over years of taking abuse resulted in what I perceive as some concentration roadblocks in my mind where I started to neglect work little by little to a lot because I couldn't focus on one thing for more than an hour or two. I also lost track of time in addition to the lack of interest in my work already pulling me apart. It was pretty devastating to perpetually feel that my career was over and that my livelihood was suddenly yanked out from under me. Added to this turmoil I had moved with my two daughters to be near my parents, so just settling down and us getting used to living by ourselves took time. Being an extreme optimist I think for years I tried to fake being fine, but the experience of becoming more and more misunderstood by everyone around lead to increasing my misery via depression and the unfathomable effects of PTSD. There were only a couple of friends to whom I opened up completely about the real nightmare I was living in but just being able to express and talk it all out helped immensely. I didn't get any professional help because I felt I didn't need it and it was a temporary phase. I thought I knew my own capabilities and that made me confident I would be able to pull myself through by sheer determination and will power. My staunch belief was that God was in control and wouldn't let me suffer unless it was part of His perfect will. No where did my faith falter but I initially failed to see that I was not the same person anymore and I needed a lot of time and healing and help to get back on my feet. Thankfully over the course of the past three years my progress has been great - healing slowly but surely. I was rapidly becoming physically fit and had already been doing a lot of inner work that made me finally able to love myself and my life as it was. However the progress stalled short of my professional work… and didn’t change much till Oct-Nov of last year (My divorce had gone through a couple of months before it which was a humongous psychological release I feel). One of the most crucial turning point was when I started writing and writing and writing without thinking of it as a waste of time. I used to belittle myself constantly when I felt the crazy need to write my random thoughts, not realizing that it was what would eventually bring release to my distressed mind. I have written extensively about this phase in the introduction and commentary to my collection of 41 poems titled "Framing 40" which I released in April 2018. It’s like a mini book in itself  so if you want to know more about me just go ahead and read it starting from the introduction on the album page and through the commentary on the 41 poems (link below):
https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10213610423526506.1073741833.1580949777&type=1&l=4f4a5cf0b1

I recognize myself as an extremely strong individual and this awareness used to make me often wonder if it was this tough for me to pick myself up on all fronts then how much more for those who weren’t as self aware, intuitive or flexible. I honestly feel like I have lived many lifetimes to reach where I am and I feel pushed to help people who very often silently suffer. I want to be someone who is able to openly share my time to help and support people out of their own unique nightmares. I feel the first step is to do it via my writing since this doorway is wide open of late. Though I started publishing my creative writing only in Feb 2018, I feel I have it in me to quickly hit my goals if I can give dedicated time to them. At this beginning stages of my journey I actually really really really need financial support and I am not shy to ask for it anymore. Though I would love nothing but to keep working on my vision and these unabating ideas in my head (my goals describe a partial list) I just am not in a financial position to do it right now. I randomly do create designs for my poems and quotes when I find some time on the weekends but I would like to set apart dedicated time to do this and build the groups and websites I envision. I look forward to the kindness of known and unknown individuals who would like to help me realize these goals.

Thanks & hugs
- Anita

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Ants
$5 or more per month 0 patrons
The hardworking army of supporters that build me up. Every little contribution counts. Access to Patron-only feed.
Bees
$35 or more per month 0 patrons
Encouragers that love my work and want to see me give more and more time to my creative pursuits. Will have first access to most of my work and free membership to my websites where applicable.
Butterflies
$75 or more per month 0 patrons
Butterflies are those who want to soar with me. Closer bonds that are mutually encouraging and uplifting. Will be made part of my inner groups to help give my work more direction.
Eagles
$150 or more per month 0 patrons
Eagles are those pushing, helping and challenging me till I finally start publishing books and relevant websites. Apart from the personal relationship forged, they will be thanked for their indisputably vital support on my websites and books.