Michael Settoon

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About Michael Settoon

"So I've been thinking long and hard about this whole charity donation streaming. I'm sure I'll find a reason to change it from time to time, but I think what I'll be mainly putting any money I take in while streaming will be going toward the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. As someone who has dealt with depression and thoughts of suicide for most of my life, this is the charity I feel that hits home the most (by all means, if you can think of one better, I'm open to suggestions). I know first hand what it feels like to emotionally hit rock bottom, even when there's no reason for it whatsoever. I've self medicated, self mutilated, contemplated taking my own life more times than I can count. Those of us that go through this on a regular basis know what I mean, but everyone else just doesn't seem to get it. My most recent episode happened last week when I lost my job. I felt that my family would be better off without me and there wasn't much that could convince me otherwise. Luckily my wife sensed something was wrong and came home to check on me. Can't really say what she would have come home to if she hadn't. This may be something that I joke about occasionally, and usually it's because that's my way of coping with it (through humor), but it's something I deal with on a regular basis. About 6 months ago I decided to reach out to my doctor and start medication, which has definitely helped, but it's not a cure all for depression. Sometimes I just wake up and it's there. It's that asshole friend that no one likes, but you have no other choice but to hang out with out of obligation. I started streaming as a way to cope with my feelings. I felt that if I could keep eyes on me, that maybe I'd be less likely to do something stupid. What started off as a joke, made me a little money on the side. It wasn't much, and probably never will be, but this was never meant to be a means to an end. I still enjoy it nevertheless. So from now on, any money that I make while streaming my silly little video games, I will be donating to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. I've personally used these calls in times of crisis and I know what it can do to just hear someone say that everything is going to be ok. Even if watching some asshole play games for a couple hours isn't your thing, but you feel like no one else understands what you're going through, I would love to talk with you. I'm not one to push ideals or religion down your throat, but I'll listen. We can all get through these shitty times together. [end rant]"