lonely carp

is creating a song journal

9

patrons
I am a transfemme/nonbinary pianist, composer, poet, scientist, and all-round creator of weird sadgirl things. 

I make narrative-led music that explores the human condition, queer issues and themes of gender. I am an award-winning trans* activist and use music as a tool for my activism.

My lyrics are (I warn you, sometimes excruciatingly) vulnerable and honest. I see my work as a kind of music diary, each song with its own related, highly personal story and life experience to share.

I am a classically trained pianist now celebrating the 20th anniversary of my relationship with the piano (sadly my piano will never love me back because I am too aggressive a lover) but I make all kinds of art CONSTANTLY and I can't think of a better suited platform to pour out all the copious amounts of stuff I make, especially given the private nature of the content. The only way I can make something positive out of my life experience is to write about it in an honest and exposing way, so hopefully you might hear your Self in it, and be helped somehow.

We are in the midst of a loneliness pandemic.
But we don't have to be alone in our loneliness.
Genuine connection is the only antidote.
That's why I am starting this Patreon. To create a community that is a safe space for LGBTIQUA+ people and their allies to share their experience and grow together.

I am in the process of being diagnosed with a chronic illness, and creating is the only thing keeping me going. I considered leaving my PhD in genomics/virology because of the physical and mental strain I am under. But I am continuing. I have to be kinder to myself, and that involves keeping enough time for my creative projects. I've come to realise that expression is paramount to my survival. I truly have faith in my art and how it can help people, as making it has always helped me.

To say that making a living from my creations is 'my dream' is an absolute understatement. The trauma and obstacles I have faced in my life as a disabled trans* person have made me realise that this is it for me. Helping others, and my Self, through curiosity and creating. This is my spirit's truest face. I refuse to be anybody other than my Self.
I invite you to join me.
It's scary.
But fuck, it's real.

***

Supporting my Patreon doesn't just mean you are helping me realise my career, but that you are a collaborator in my work. I love to create projects based around human beings and their stories, and I hope to hear about your experience just as I want to tell you about mine, so together we can make some really important art. 

I love you. Thank you for being here.





Tiers
precious egg
$5 or more per month

♥ be part of the koi-mmunity

♥ access to all of my song journal entries containing:

   ⚧ songs, heartfelt essays, poetry & brain vomits

   ⚧ detailed documentation of shows

   ⚧ professionally shot film & digital photographs

   ⚧ demos and initial scribbles

♥ early releases of all songs to be released on spotify/bandcamp

♥ provide feedback and participate in patron-only discussions

♥ collaboration welcome 


☂ i love you and i am so grateful you believe in me




treasured larva
$10 or more per month

♥ all the aforementioned stuff, plus:

♥ access to collaborative journal entries with other artists

♥ album codes for secret, patron-only bandcamp releases


☂ sincerely thank you. 


cherised fingerling
$30 or more per month

♥ everything previously listed, and:

♥ FREE TIX TO ALL MY FUTURE SHOWS 


☂ i really really appreciate the help!!!

esteemed yearling
$50 or more per month

♥ everything else, and:

♥ i will send you a cute hand-made thank you postcard


☂ you're making things a lot easier so thank you endlessly

adored adult carp
$100 or more per month

♥ all the previous stuff

♥ you can give input on what merch i should make as the patreon grows

♥ receive the first run of whatever merch you like


☂ GEE THANKS SO VERY MUCH 

superbly superabundant school of fish
$1,000 or more per month

🏠 THIS IS THE PAY-MY-RENT TIER  (it's sort of a joke)


but wow if you are about to click this holy crap you are about to change my life... you will be responsible for me obtaining full time status as an artist. and that's not a joke.  

we will basically be in a band together.

THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART AND THE HEART OF MY BOTTOM



Goals
81% complete
FEELIN' ELECTRIC
in numerical terms, you are effectively covering my electricity bill! This is huge! You are enabling me to play two different electric pianos, produce music on a desktop mac, charge a laptop for writing posts while i'm out, light and heat my flat, keep my fridge and oven running to sustain me, and my shower hot to wash away everything i need to. we are almost at the goal. there aren't really words to describe how full my heart feels knowing this. what an incredible feeling to know my art brings enough light to enough people to keep the lights on. 
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I am a transfemme/nonbinary pianist, composer, poet, scientist, and all-round creator of weird sadgirl things. 

I make narrative-led music that explores the human condition, queer issues and themes of gender. I am an award-winning trans* activist and use music as a tool for my activism.

My lyrics are (I warn you, sometimes excruciatingly) vulnerable and honest. I see my work as a kind of music diary, each song with its own related, highly personal story and life experience to share.

I am a classically trained pianist now celebrating the 20th anniversary of my relationship with the piano (sadly my piano will never love me back because I am too aggressive a lover) but I make all kinds of art CONSTANTLY and I can't think of a better suited platform to pour out all the copious amounts of stuff I make, especially given the private nature of the content. The only way I can make something positive out of my life experience is to write about it in an honest and exposing way, so hopefully you might hear your Self in it, and be helped somehow.

We are in the midst of a loneliness pandemic.
But we don't have to be alone in our loneliness.
Genuine connection is the only antidote.
That's why I am starting this Patreon. To create a community that is a safe space for LGBTIQUA+ people and their allies to share their experience and grow together.

I am in the process of being diagnosed with a chronic illness, and creating is the only thing keeping me going. I considered leaving my PhD in genomics/virology because of the physical and mental strain I am under. But I am continuing. I have to be kinder to myself, and that involves keeping enough time for my creative projects. I've come to realise that expression is paramount to my survival. I truly have faith in my art and how it can help people, as making it has always helped me.

To say that making a living from my creations is 'my dream' is an absolute understatement. The trauma and obstacles I have faced in my life as a disabled trans* person have made me realise that this is it for me. Helping others, and my Self, through curiosity and creating. This is my spirit's truest face. I refuse to be anybody other than my Self.
I invite you to join me.
It's scary.
But fuck, it's real.

***

Supporting my Patreon doesn't just mean you are helping me realise my career, but that you are a collaborator in my work. I love to create projects based around human beings and their stories, and I hope to hear about your experience just as I want to tell you about mine, so together we can make some really important art. 

I love you. Thank you for being here.





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Tiers
precious egg
$5 or more per month

♥ be part of the koi-mmunity

♥ access to all of my song journal entries containing:

   ⚧ songs, heartfelt essays, poetry & brain vomits

   ⚧ detailed documentation of shows

   ⚧ professionally shot film & digital photographs

   ⚧ demos and initial scribbles

♥ early releases of all songs to be released on spotify/bandcamp

♥ provide feedback and participate in patron-only discussions

♥ collaboration welcome 


☂ i love you and i am so grateful you believe in me




treasured larva
$10 or more per month

♥ all the aforementioned stuff, plus:

♥ access to collaborative journal entries with other artists

♥ album codes for secret, patron-only bandcamp releases


☂ sincerely thank you. 


cherised fingerling
$30 or more per month

♥ everything previously listed, and:

♥ FREE TIX TO ALL MY FUTURE SHOWS 


☂ i really really appreciate the help!!!

esteemed yearling
$50 or more per month

♥ everything else, and:

♥ i will send you a cute hand-made thank you postcard


☂ you're making things a lot easier so thank you endlessly

adored adult carp
$100 or more per month

♥ all the previous stuff

♥ you can give input on what merch i should make as the patreon grows

♥ receive the first run of whatever merch you like


☂ GEE THANKS SO VERY MUCH 

superbly superabundant school of fish
$1,000 or more per month

🏠 THIS IS THE PAY-MY-RENT TIER  (it's sort of a joke)


but wow if you are about to click this holy crap you are about to change my life... you will be responsible for me obtaining full time status as an artist. and that's not a joke.  

we will basically be in a band together.

THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART AND THE HEART OF MY BOTTOM